i miss degeneracy </3 the corporeal kind, all flesh, substance, distasteful materiality with no respect for liability. i crave hedonism, indulgence; because im young, arrogant, and incredibly vain. i miss true escapism, my peers in that endeavor dressed in garish costumes that slink and slip and peel away. i want to feel! gloaming moonlight on my skin, sweat that mirrors vulgar excess, perrenial beats that consume me in kind inebriety.